December , Blessful Month ! =)

yeheyyyy ~
I Love December Full ! =)
I felt very blessfull on this month .
got a lot of fun with family and my friends .
christmas is over and new year is coming soon .
what should I do in these few days ?
should make a good memories in 2010 .
=D
and also I just knew a guy . one of my sister's friends .
very friendly . aww ! =D
hahaaass ~
and I wish that I could know him a lot and could be a good friends with him .
I feel good ! nananananaaaa ! =D
I didn't feel regret after knew and met him a few days ago .
and sure I wanna be good friends ! hahaass .
can I ?
but still a big question mark on my mind .
no matter what . i should try my best to be his friends !

my love story.

what is love ? till now , i'm still don't understand what love is .

after broke up with him .
i'm finding myself really lonely .
but beside that , i got a lot friends who cheers me up .
they are my soka friends .
they really being nice to me . and i also treat them all , my brothers .
day after day , i went out with them .
happy and sad , we felt together .
that's why they really means a lot for me ! =)

one day, a guy, just call him " Mr. A " .
i felt that he is different from others .
although he didn't hang out with us , but he cares me .
i always called him crocodile =D
we always text to each other aevery day till i left from tanjungpinang .
do i love him ?
no , i don't . i just care for him .
although we both really close , but i sure that i felt nothing to him .
why ? cause i'm really afraid of loving someone .
then, i choosed to leave him slowly .
sorry Mr. A . i can't give you my heart .

and now , i found out that still got another guy who cares me .
just called him " Mr. B "
yeeaahhh . Mr. B really a nice person ^^
but so poor, he already got a girl that he loves .
although we can't be together, but sure i dote and care you, Mr. B .
it's our fate that we just could be close when i arrived here .
you already have a person you love, so you should be nice to her .
and i believed that you sure nice to her ^^

i'm afraid of loving someone,
i'm afraid of hurting someone,
and i just realise that i have no one to love....

i'm finding myself lonely here..........................

hey there ! =)

wowwww ~
it has been a long time that i didn't update any blog here .
busy ? not also .
just felt a little lazy . wahahaaa =D
welllll ~
it has been happened a lot of problems in my life .
first : i have broke up with the man that i love most
second : on that time i didn't choose to go to bali
and now i have been living in jakarta .
third : what yaa ? uhmm . my life ?
then i'll share my problems from here ! ^^
my first problem ( broke up with him )
LOL !
really make everyone got a big question mark .
hahaaaas . yaaa ~
they were asking me why and why .
got some reason that i couldn't tell you people .
cause it's our problems . and it's also our destiny =)
i choosed to broke up also for his future and his carrier .
trying not to make him worry bout me at here , can concectrate with his carrier there .
well , i felt sad cause we end our relationship .
but also felt happy cause we both can be good friend .
broke up doesn't mean that we can't be friends !
yeeaaahhhh ~
thanks for your everything , wei =)
then the second one ( move to jakarta )
so suddenly that i should move to jakarta .
before i decided not to leave .
i had promise myself to do my best in tpi , my hometown .
then a few weeks later , my parents told me that we will move to jakarta next month .
LOL ? suddenly . sigh*
i felt very angry cause they always make their own desicion without asking me .
then i told them that i will not leave and i wanna stay in tpi !
i know that i'm selfish but they also selfish .
day after day , i was trying to face the truth that i should move to jakarta .
shi bu de my friends and my work ! =(
thanks for everything guys . you guys really means a lot for me .
and i also had a really nice farewell party ! ^^
third ( my life )
my life here . so so lals .
sometimes i always think that could i go back to tpi again ?
could i stay there again ?
miss you my sweet hometown .
i hate living in jakarta . 24 hours didn't enough for everyone .
i also resign my job a few days ago .
sigh* . really tired living at here .
and now , i'm praying that i could go back there .
hope my wish wil be fulfil .

lonely ?

what feelings i hate most ?
it's LONELY !
why ? because when you felt lonely .
you'll miss and think of someone who you love most .
and that's the feeling that i must have , maybe few months more .
my bestfriend just went to batam , few weeks ago .
i really felt that i have lost the important person in my life .
and now , will i have the same feelings again ?
i think that i'll have the same feelings again .
and OF COURSE ! I'LL HAVE ! =(
but if that's the best way for you , dear .
i'll let you go . you must have a good future also .
and just don't forget one thing .

i'm at here , waiting for your come back , and you'll become a success man .

I LOVE YOU !

LOST = AFRAID ?

i just read about something .
what is sister call ? damn ! =)
i just really confuse about my friendship .
sister ? should be like that ?
in front of me you are the nice one , but at my back .
YOU ARE THE FAKERRR ONE !
good yayyy ?
that's why my by said , don't be to nice .
cause you haven't knew their real attitude .
oh gosh ! now i just realise it .
i don't afraid to lose you , i just afraid to lose my everything .
who is you ? that's you !

Gathering...

15.05.2010 , our first gathering at PANORAMA KTV ! =)
it has been so long that we didn't see one another .
and also some of us lost contact for one another yayy >.<
bur our firndship never end .
hope that there will be another gathering .
love yaaa friends ! =)

who is that girl ? she call deny ! =)
pretty right ?
she is my bestie when we still junior high school .
i call her " NGIA MOI
i like to share my problem with her . cause she really can keep my promise . and we never lost contact cause till now we study at same school .
love yaa den ! =)

this girl call susanti or ahuii .

but i prefer call her huii aaaaa .
hahaaasss ~
she is also my bestie when we still junior high school .
she is really a nice person also " SEBUNG "
we never lost contact ! =)
love yaaa huii ^^

dher name is aya =)
she also my bestie an my sista o .
ayaaaa , love yaaa !
hahaaasss ~

yeaaaahhhh ~

deny, i, huii, ayaa miss yaaa =)
keep contact and hang oud together !

this boy call samuel .
my geng when we still junior high school o .
his really like to tell a joke .
and beside him is his lover , call vivin .
last long yaa both ! =)

beside me ? GUSNADI .

hahaasss =pp his voice very wonderful ee .
and he also lost his fat and became loke this now .
handsome right ? =D

beside me call robin .
hahaass . his hair really funny yaaa =D
last night when i take picha with him , after she the result , we all laugh .
hahaaasss =D
his hair like kribo at the picture .
i lost contact with him almost 3 years . and last night , we all gather again =)

this guy call jetvin or aping
he is from smp 5 , but we also ask him to join .


really have a fun gathering ! =)

something......

Just now i've just read a blog from someone and i think that we have same experience what @@
i think that she was very blessful bout something that she should know .
i've waited almost 1 year about something that i wanna know .
but , i didn't get any response from that something .
haissss ~
i think that ...... didn't care me already .

i'll begin the story here :
last year , when i broke up with my boyfriend .
i felt that i've lost my everything =(
but , i have my bestie ! did you know ? they cheers me up !
at that time , i felt that's the best decision for us .
i didn't find him like before when we broke up .
because i already " THOI PHUA "
every day , i spent my day with my bestie and of course i didn't forget my family ^^
my mum also ask me to find the better one and i replied her .
" mum , i promise that i'll not love another man till i have forget him "
my mum just smiled and asked me to study hard , don't think about love first .
day by day , i felt very lonely until finally a guy appear from my life .
at first , i don't care about him . cause i still love my ex .
but , after 1 week ago , i think that he was a nice guy what ! =)
he was very nice to me but he has told me that he was not a nice guy .
he was very kind with all girls that she know .
and i just say , " oooooooo , it's doesn't matter "
until one night , suddenly i felt stomachache . " oh my gosh ! it's already ten o'clock !
it's very impossible that i went out to buy some medicine . suan le baaa , just sleep and tomorrow will be okayy "
on that time , i was sms-ing with him .
then he said that he wanted to bring me some medicine .
suddenly , BLANK !!!!! i replied and said " no , no , no . it's very late already . i just need to take a rest "
he didn't replied me and suddenly he called me .
my phone rang " LALALALAALALALAA ~ " i answered and he said , " i've arrived you home , open the door please " .
@@ on that situation , i just wearing my pyjamas .
quickly , i grabbed my jacket and run to open the door .
he smiled and bring that medicine for me .
he said " quick eat your medicine after that take your rest " i replied okayy and say thank you to him .
after he went home , i feel very happy . still have someone who cares me ! =)
but i didn't feel anything to him and i treat him as my BESTFRIEND !
day after day , time passed so quick and we became closer .
i treat him as my brother ^^
but , on april , my ex text me and said that he wanna back with me .
he really felt that he has lost his everything and feel very sorry cause he didn't cherish me .
at first i didn't like to back with him . but , quite a long time .
i felt that i still love him so i decided to back with him .
and of course i lost contact with that guy =(
felt very sad but " nasi sudah jadi bubur "
i really wanna know how's his feeling but i afraid to ask and also didn't get a change to ask .
and now , i also live happily with my boyfriend .
but , it doesn't mean that i forget him .


PS : IF YOU LOVE SOMEONE , BETTER TELL HIM OR HER . CAUSE , IF YOU HAVE LOST THEM YOU WILL REGRET AND IT'S ALSO TOO LATE .

.. friends and lover ? ,,

FRIENDS and LOVER , which one more important ?
most people always said that , FRIENDS ! @@
yeeaahhh ! i know that . friends is more important .
but , in my friendship , i don't think that friends is the most important one .
whyy ? there's too many reason for me to say it .
sigh*
sometimes i really felt jealous with others people .
why their friendship so good what ! =(
why i can't ? fiiuuuhhhh ~
i'm better choose my lover and family is the most important one .
and i just can say , one of my sista , you are the best what ! =)
no need to say who is that person .
i know , you know yayyyyy =)
hope that our friendship can always go smoothly .
at past , there's too many misunderstood between us .
but now , i think that we can always be a good sista yaaa !
we can share everyting ^^
3 word for you all .
I LOVE YOU by , dad and mum , and YOU ! =)

.. peq7.com !! ..

what happen with my laptop ?!!
@@
WTF you !
you changed my program , it makes me became confuse you know !
what a stupid shop .
i asked you to check my laptop ! not to rearrange it .
haissss ~
really confuse with it .
GERAM AAAAAAA !

.. FRIENDSHIP ..

what is friendship ?

it's when you need them , they always be there for you .
when you sad , they will cheers you up !
thats why i do love you my sista ! =)
for yen , i love you so much ! hahaaasss =D
i really love being with you .
when i call you , " yen ! kfc kia . " , you'll reply me " kia lols ! " .
it seems that KFC will be our second home liaw .
kakaaasss ! =D
i really miss that day , 14.03.10 . really fun with you sist !
we LIVE.LAUGH.LOVE . aaaaaa !! miss aaaaaaaaaaa !!
sooner or later , some of you will go to spore liaw .
damn miss ! haihhhhh ~
really cherish our friendship .
one of my sista , aya said we are UNUNIFIED ! =D
really funny !

i just can say .
really love and cherish you sist !

I LOVE HIM

On 25th July
our LOVE began
he is my first love also my last love
everything will be fine if he always support me.
i really love him
he is more than a man and this is more than a love

NEWBIE !

hii blogger ! =)
i'm new at here . please teach me how to use this .
i'm still confuse of it >.<