my love story.

what is love ? till now , i'm still don't understand what love is .

after broke up with him .
i'm finding myself really lonely .
but beside that , i got a lot friends who cheers me up .
they are my soka friends .
they really being nice to me . and i also treat them all , my brothers .
day after day , i went out with them .
happy and sad , we felt together .
that's why they really means a lot for me ! =)

one day, a guy, just call him " Mr. A " .
i felt that he is different from others .
although he didn't hang out with us , but he cares me .
i always called him crocodile =D
we always text to each other aevery day till i left from tanjungpinang .
do i love him ?
no , i don't . i just care for him .
although we both really close , but i sure that i felt nothing to him .
why ? cause i'm really afraid of loving someone .
then, i choosed to leave him slowly .
sorry Mr. A . i can't give you my heart .

and now , i found out that still got another guy who cares me .
just called him " Mr. B "
yeeaahhh . Mr. B really a nice person ^^
but so poor, he already got a girl that he loves .
although we can't be together, but sure i dote and care you, Mr. B .
it's our fate that we just could be close when i arrived here .
you already have a person you love, so you should be nice to her .
and i believed that you sure nice to her ^^

i'm afraid of loving someone,
i'm afraid of hurting someone,
and i just realise that i have no one to love....

i'm finding myself lonely here..........................

hey there ! =)

wowwww ~
it has been a long time that i didn't update any blog here .
busy ? not also .
just felt a little lazy . wahahaaa =D
welllll ~
it has been happened a lot of problems in my life .
first : i have broke up with the man that i love most
second : on that time i didn't choose to go to bali
and now i have been living in jakarta .
third : what yaa ? uhmm . my life ?
then i'll share my problems from here ! ^^
my first problem ( broke up with him )
LOL !
really make everyone got a big question mark .
hahaaaas . yaaa ~
they were asking me why and why .
got some reason that i couldn't tell you people .
cause it's our problems . and it's also our destiny =)
i choosed to broke up also for his future and his carrier .
trying not to make him worry bout me at here , can concectrate with his carrier there .
well , i felt sad cause we end our relationship .
but also felt happy cause we both can be good friend .
broke up doesn't mean that we can't be friends !
yeeaaahhhh ~
thanks for your everything , wei =)
then the second one ( move to jakarta )
so suddenly that i should move to jakarta .
before i decided not to leave .
i had promise myself to do my best in tpi , my hometown .
then a few weeks later , my parents told me that we will move to jakarta next month .
LOL ? suddenly . sigh*
i felt very angry cause they always make their own desicion without asking me .
then i told them that i will not leave and i wanna stay in tpi !
i know that i'm selfish but they also selfish .
day after day , i was trying to face the truth that i should move to jakarta .
shi bu de my friends and my work ! =(
thanks for everything guys . you guys really means a lot for me .
and i also had a really nice farewell party ! ^^
third ( my life )
my life here . so so lals .
sometimes i always think that could i go back to tpi again ?
could i stay there again ?
miss you my sweet hometown .
i hate living in jakarta . 24 hours didn't enough for everyone .
i also resign my job a few days ago .
sigh* . really tired living at here .
and now , i'm praying that i could go back there .
hope my wish wil be fulfil .